I am afraid I am afraid

Written By Sofya Yuditskaya

i am afraid i am afraid

im afraid i’ll loose

im afraid i’ll loose my place

my place on the stage

my place in line

my voice

my chance to speak and choose

i’m afraid i’ve lost my chance to loose

i am afraid i am alone

and that i can’t hide in my home because the home i have isn’t really mine to speak of  

i’m am afraid i am already speaking from beyond vale 

my bones are thin, my nerves frail

i am afraid i have already lost

already paid out every cost

for just a sliver of a chance to live

and that this world, it did not give that chance the play, 

the home it wants to grow,

and stay

but we do not all get to have our day

we do not all get to have our day

we do not all get to have our day

we do not all get to have our day

Sofya Yuditskaya

Sofy (@_the_s0urce_) is a site-specific media artist and educator working with sound, video, interactivity, projections, code, paper, and salvaged material. Her work focuses on techno-occult rituals, street performance, and participatory art. Sofy's performances enact and reframe hegemonies, she works with materials that exemplify our deep entanglement with petro-culture and technology’s affect on consciousness. She has worked on projects at Eyebeam, 3LD, the Netherlands Institute voor Media Kunst, Steim, ARS Electronica, Games for Learning Institute, The Guggenheim (NYC), The National Mall and has taught at GAFFTA, MoMA, NYU, Srishti, and the Rubin Museum. She is a PhD Candidate in Audio-Visual Composition at NYU GSAS currently on her Fulbright year at TheISRO in Bangalore

https://yuditskaya.com
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